Taking Time Off

When life hits you with certain curve balls, you have got to do one of three things; dodge them, let them hit you in the face, or just ignore them and take some time off. Doing that for a while seemed the best idea. But I realize how dire the consequences have been. I took time off from the things that have been me for such a long time. Writing for example, all I do is record what happens daily but not really how I feel. Maybe its the 'guy' in me that took over. I have not held a paintbrush in my hand for almost a year. The last painting activity I did was on a pot in the back yard with family and young girls. When it got dark and chilly out, I stopped and have not finished ever since. I have not done any creatives with the pictures I like to take...I keep wanting to make these memory books as gifts for friends and family, but I took time off. There is a plus to this complacency though. I started to define myself in other ways. And that has opened a new door in my life that I have been afraid of passing through. So many things are changing so fast in my life and sometimes I just want to be numb and ignore what's happening. So many challenges are popping up every single minute along with the changes. Constantly on my toes, I have no time off at all. Even sleep is just for a few hours to cool down, otherwise I'm almost hardwired on overdrive. Maybe this is a way of taking time off other issues that now seem mundane. I am back now...hopefully people still read as much as they watch YouTube videos (culprit). Even though I mostly talk to myself, this form of dealing with my curve balls is therapy enough for me. Ahhhhh, feel better now...back to work!!